During worship at church today God spoke and gave me a couple pics as I w thinking/missing Nina:
1) my family & I were gathering around the throne worshipping Jesus from here and Nina joined us as she was worshipping him in our circle in heaven. We get to participate in what Nina is doing now, but only in part.
2)Nina touching Jesus'S Face. She has an intimacy with Jesus we get once we get to glory too.
Really cool. I really miss her and love her and am working on a song called "One Day"
One day I will see her in heaven....
One day Jesus will embrace us both
:D
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
Nina Memory & Storybook
Thats me and my Neener.
One day I will see her again
I am going to start to work on a memory book for her.
I so remember Nina dancing around during a rockin out worship time at Godrock on a Friday night and I am sure we were lie 19 or 20.
Sooo good that she is home with God and it is so precious that God reminds me of her often with such beautiful memories of her. Than you Jesus =D grateful and on this rememberance day I remember the sacrifices made by peace keepers and my beautiful twin sister Nina.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
More reconcilliation Dleduc
Seems like God is bringing even more resolution from my past
Forgot to mentiOn that the same morning as I brace myself to make amends with Eric,
I find Dleduc on FB.
I treated him like shit. Former roommate and helluva nice guy.
Consigned for his first MC and maxEd it out. I owe him close to $1500 if not more.
That was over 10 years ago
My tally includes:
DHare : $2000+ for car/rent loans since 97'
Rbirkenbach/ CIN 95: $3500 for school on the special needs child certificate I always use!
Since 95
God please help me to take responsibility of what I clearly owe to people and make amends
Amen
whoops (nov 11 update: i owe Dleduc $3-4000)
Forgot to mentiOn that the same morning as I brace myself to make amends with Eric,
I find Dleduc on FB.
I treated him like shit. Former roommate and helluva nice guy.
Consigned for his first MC and maxEd it out. I owe him close to $1500 if not more.
That was over 10 years ago
My tally includes:
DHare : $2000+ for car/rent loans since 97'
Rbirkenbach/ CIN 95: $3500 for school on the special needs child certificate I always use!
Since 95
God please help me to take responsibility of what I clearly owe to people and make amends
Amen
whoops (nov 11 update: i owe Dleduc $3-4000)
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Bromance with Eric is over
if you know your brother has something against you, come and show him his fault
And then if you win your brother over, go present your gift to the altar
Mathew 5:23
If your brother wrongs you, go and show him his fault, between you and him privately. If he listens to you, you have won back your brother.
Mathew 18
Well after 6 months of not talking I initiated a talk so we could resolve things
We agreed to disagree. His approach to blasting people with letters is unchanged and he was unrepentant. To his credit he did say that he needs letters to communicate his thoughts and he could've tried a bit more gentleness. He also did say he was in a wounded place and kind of unsettled after a shit exp in winnipeg somhe was grumpy --the end I think 3 things:
1) I was more into him as a friend than he was to me: I blubbered that I loved him, was hurt bad by him and missed his friendship. He smiled but did try hard to reciprocate..
2) he's a loose cannon. All of his prophetic rebukes don't have a community/church/friends to help back up his "opinions/words from God". If he feels God is convicting him to speak out harshly against sOmeone, he better have the fucking backing of someone else who follows the same God and agrees with him, or else it's here is the fruit.
Tried to reason with him that he was doing more harm than good in tearing down his brothers instead of edifying them.
And his " I like to send a letter, let them process my rebuke and wait for them to respond is kinda fucked up. Why would people respond to you if you yell at them?
I now am a bit skeptical of his "judgements" and "prophesies"
Like he burns down a house and after people get out he tells them why he burned the house down in the first place. Much better to give the people an explanation why he has to set the house on fire and lovingly guide them out.*sigh* whatever
3) seems like he has never been wrong in his life, and enjoys being right.
Anyways it was a man- break up and I feel a lot of peace that I said my peace and tried hard to listen to him. But now have regulated him to the 2nd- maybe 3rd tier of friendships that I don't really want to pursue at all.
Ah well. Better to know and grow through this now the later.
He's heading down a dangerous path as a lone wolf by himself and now I question the validity of why he always has conflict at churches and has had so many lost ministry experiences
Ah well. Better to leave this alone . God'll work things out with him
God bless Eric.
And then if you win your brother over, go present your gift to the altar
Mathew 5:23
If your brother wrongs you, go and show him his fault, between you and him privately. If he listens to you, you have won back your brother.
Mathew 18
Well after 6 months of not talking I initiated a talk so we could resolve things
We agreed to disagree. His approach to blasting people with letters is unchanged and he was unrepentant. To his credit he did say that he needs letters to communicate his thoughts and he could've tried a bit more gentleness. He also did say he was in a wounded place and kind of unsettled after a shit exp in winnipeg somhe was grumpy --the end I think 3 things:
1) I was more into him as a friend than he was to me: I blubbered that I loved him, was hurt bad by him and missed his friendship. He smiled but did try hard to reciprocate..
2) he's a loose cannon. All of his prophetic rebukes don't have a community/church/friends to help back up his "opinions/words from God". If he feels God is convicting him to speak out harshly against sOmeone, he better have the fucking backing of someone else who follows the same God and agrees with him, or else it's here is the fruit.
Tried to reason with him that he was doing more harm than good in tearing down his brothers instead of edifying them.
And his " I like to send a letter, let them process my rebuke and wait for them to respond is kinda fucked up. Why would people respond to you if you yell at them?
I now am a bit skeptical of his "judgements" and "prophesies"
Like he burns down a house and after people get out he tells them why he burned the house down in the first place. Much better to give the people an explanation why he has to set the house on fire and lovingly guide them out.*sigh* whatever
3) seems like he has never been wrong in his life, and enjoys being right.
Anyways it was a man- break up and I feel a lot of peace that I said my peace and tried hard to listen to him. But now have regulated him to the 2nd- maybe 3rd tier of friendships that I don't really want to pursue at all.
Ah well. Better to know and grow through this now the later.
He's heading down a dangerous path as a lone wolf by himself and now I question the validity of why he always has conflict at churches and has had so many lost ministry experiences
Ah well. Better to leave this alone . God'll work things out with him
God bless Eric.
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