Guys I cc's...you are too far away to be of physical use to me ( buy me beer haha) but interceed and pray hard for me when you can:)
Shane, Chris, Dan, Greg:
Hi guys. Just got back into town and I am in sorrow & joy over Nina going home. But that is the least of my problems. I have grieved as much as I could with my community at NLV and am not looking forward to "long distance" grieving... where none of you guys met my beautiful twin sister Nina, but you will get an earful.
Also Nina, being special needs was a terrible liar and she has "gifted" Atara with the courage to speak out to me and how rough our marriage has been during this whole memorial thing. Atara gave me the 6 months or I am "out" ultimatum(if not physically, emotionally...) and I have never been so scared but happy. I knew there was something wrong between us for months. Now we (Atara & I ) can work on it with God living in me -helping.
You are hereby drafted to the "Don't Fuck With Me" club (DFWM): I need friends who I can be accountable to and vulnerable to to make me healthy and my marriage work. Pray and see if God wants you to man up and help...I will be transparent as I can cause, Dad-God can only use truth to heal ...and it is gonna fuckin hurt, but the weight of my life & sorrow is already on Him and I am worshipping my face off ( Loralee Thiessen, dear friend said to me "i love your worshippng heart (even in grief) got me to play the last song for communion on Sunday night "whiter than snow..i've been redeemed"...I was absolutely wrecked, made quite a few mistakes but I worshipped Jesus and rememebred again who I am and who Dad-God is....even in sorrow, even in joy..I will put the full weight of my brokeness on Jesus...I just need those that can help balance the weight when it gets too much.
There is beer too of course.....
ok let me know cause if not I got to get Rod Sawatsky, Ted Jardine, Jeremy Wiebe,Jon Best( you know these guys Shane),Eric Kang, Hector Born, Sean Faulkes, Aaron Blue and others to move here to Calgary. They give THE best man-hugs in a straight way ...of course :P
Thanks for listening...I am getting a Scotch today.
in sorrow & joy and at the feet of Jesus,
Ray
P.S. Hit reply if you get this message . thx
1st John 1
If we walk in the Light as He is in the Light we have fellowship with each other and the blood of Jesus cleanses us from all sin
