hello- I can't sleep

1 out of 5 pucks

Only manic insomneia of epic porportions would drive me to blog again. I have slept for 2 hours tonight (coming on 4:39am!) and am fucking bipolar and stressing out over my sister in the hospital (3 week mental break own...my twin...it does not look goood) and just the shitty news that our "home" will be such for 4 years until our Landlord kicks us out and moves back in. I just hate being transient. I hate--no ---WE hate not owning our own house. And we are doing such a fucking good job of fixing everything up, the landlord can't wait to retire here and move back!!
ahh fuck. I need to pray and relax and ask the only One who can help me to still my heart and pour out love and grace.

sick, but not with too much bipolar

4.75 out of 5 pucks.

Hey everyone. I am living in Calgary now and I am still feeling pretty good and stable. So this will be a boring blog.
Oh and I am sick--think its a cold or just feeling run down from going mental and applying for tons of work everywhere. I am still jobless, but the guitar ads go in next week and I should be able to gather some newbies who want to learn guitar.

Oh and my long ago friend M disclosed to me that she also has bipolar. hurray. as great as it is to have cyber bp friends, it is also great to know people you went to church with are also bp. ok then we are waiting for chinese food to come cause we are all too sick to cook!

God please heal me and my sick family and bless all those who love you and especially those whom nobody loves.
In Jesus name. amen